The brain surgery was a success, according to the surgeon. “Will it come back?” “No, that will not come back” I didn’t ask the next question — “is it likely another brain metastasis will happen?” I’m either staying positive or avoiding the issue. Surgery was four weeks ago. Initial radiation setup was two weeks ago. They made me this lovely mask which will hold me immobile for the radiation. My claustrophobia is out in full force!
We started out with five radiation treatments on the schedule but that’s been changed to three. Doctor said less treatments but more intense. Just hoping that doesn’t mean more side effects, but he’s said there shouldn’t be any.
I’ve had to get used to letting people help me, which if you know me at all you know that isn’t easy. I’m not really supposed to drive — i had a week between surgery and radiation where the doctor said to drive local. I’ve had to get help cooking, doing laundry and other simple chores because I get tired easily. I can’t bend over and I can’t pick up anything heavy — initially five pounds but now twenty pounds. Since Blue is 11 pounds it made walking him (up and down the steps which he can’t manage) a challenge.
I’ve got food from friends, puzzles, new knitting projects and (hopefully) back to mah jongg. The doctors told me to challenge myself, I see it as keeping busy. I wonder if I can manage another marathon and another full Ironman. I want to get back on my bike and back in the pool. I see people running and I miss it! I was just starting to feel good about working out when all this started back up. I have new running shoes, a new bike and a new kick board that needs using.
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